Karma

I look at us
What we’ve been through
And all this time
I’ve been blaming you

I’ve blamed you
For destroying our family
For breaking my heart
For ruining my destiny

I now realize it wasn’t you
You did not bring this trauma
I am the one to blame for this
My downfall is my karma

So many times I have been
The one to ruin relationships
Somehow I thought I was safe
I thought what we had was sacred

Now I know the truth
We were doomed from the start
Now I feel what they felt
Now I have the broken heart

It took awhile to realize the truth
I blamed you for bringing the drama
But the fault is all my own
and you’re just a victim of my karma

A Simple Complexity? or a Complex Simplicity?

“It should all be so simple…but you’d rather make it hard…it’s like a battle, and we both end up with scars…” (if you don’t recognize those words…think The MisEducation of Lauren Hill). That tune is so more than appropriate right now in my life.

Drama, is it a simple complexity? or a complex simplicity? What do you do with it? where do you put it? how do you get away from it? When does it all just cease to exist and completely leave you alone…? I think never. It dies down but the effects of it seemingly linger and grab a hold of whatever is found loose in its path.

Today I am to a point where there is no more effort on my part. There is no more concern…I simply don’t care. You reap what you sow, and if the seed you are sowing is bad seed, in return you will get bad seed.

In current society it is so hard for people to own up to how their own actions have caused what exist around them. A good friend said to me…”you only know about it cuz you’re being told about it…if you remove that part of the equation, you won’t even have to hear about it…” sounds so simple, right?

I don’t know if that’s right or not…I don’t know what to believe about anything. More story has been shed to me and nothing is adding up…I have my own speculations now of what is going on and for the sake of drama going away I am going to keep them to myself. But someone is really all up in my business and I’d like them to kindly see their way out…

Why is there DRAMA?

Have you ever tried to rid yourself of certain aspects of situations but every time you turn around it’s something new? I just don’t get it. The best business in the line of business is to mind YOUR OWN business. Why so many people become infected with the need to stir around in business that is not theirs is beyond me.

I can’t stand drama and as of lately it seems to be following me around like I’m it’s new best friend…after I put out the flames to one fire here comes another and I just don’t want to deal with it. I am indirectly being tagged in a game of freeze tag that I was never offered the option to play in. The irony in that…I guess since my name has never been in anything before now folks are latching on cuz what? This is a new point in history? Something like this won’t ever come about again? Grow up! Let’s be proactive not reactive…

I just need space, away from everybody and everything…DRAMA is not healthy…being in other peoples business is not healthy…it creates unwanted stress for everyone…and I simply don’t want it! So get out of MINE!